nothing can take away the pain of losing someone…

it is a pain you have to live with the rest of your life…

there is no way through, just a way to find one more breathe…

until the next moment comes…

Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away
where I can fly
The depth of life
will dim my temptation
to live for you
ah oh…
eh eh…
If I were to be alone
silence would rock my tears
‘cause it’s all about love
and I know better…
How life is a waving feather…
So I put my arms…
around you around you…
And I know that I’ll be living soon
My eyes are on you
they’re on you…
And you see that I can’t stop shaking
No I won’t step back
but I’ll look down to hide
from your eyes
‘cause what I feel…
is so sweet…
and I’m scared
that even my own breath
Oh could burst it
if it were a bubble…
And I’d better dream
if I have to struggle
So I put my arms…
around you around you…
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you…
they’re on you…
And I hope that you won’t hurt me
I’m dancing in the room
as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music’s the reason why
I know time still exists…
Time still exists…
Time still exists…
Time still exists…
So I just put my arms…
around you around you…
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you
they’re on you…
And I hope that you won’t hurt me
My eyes are on you
they’re on you…
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes around you
they’re around you
they’re around you
My eyes…

Dear MOM

i still miss you…

i still cry for you…

no matter what 

i will always love you…

i will never let go…

no matter how hard i try to pretend

that everything is not ok…

i know you are better off…

i just still wish i could rather be with you…

this is hell

and i will keep moving forward

until i can find my way back to you…

THERE IS NOTHING MORE PROFOUND THAN LOVE AND DEATH

AND OUR LIVES ARE CAUGHT UP IN THE MIDDLE

BOTH CAN CHANGE YOU FOREVER

WHERE THERE IS NO TURNING BACK

TO THE LIFE YOU LIVED BEFORE

BOTH CAN MEAN EITHER THE END OR THE BEGINNING FOR YOU

BOTH CAN ROB YOU BLIND WITHOUT YOU KNOWING 

THE REASON OR BEING PREPARED FOR EITHER ONE

ALL I KNOW NOW

IS THAT A LIFE CAN NOT SURVIVE EITHER OF THESE

SO WHAT IS THE PURPOSE

AND WHAT IS SO PROFOUND

WHEN WE FADE AWAY LIKE DUST IN THE WIND!!!

the light of my life, the best person i have ever been honored to have been given the gift of having her in my life, i am truly blessed for having this angel as my mother…

i love you

i miss you

i thank you for being my best friend…

words escape me because i cant be with you

how i wish our journey could continue

may you rest in peace…

my heart is breaking

i constantly miss you more and more

i just wish i could have had one more moment with you

i wish i could be with you

i hope you are safe and sound

i hope you have peace now

i hope that there is no more suffering for you

yet i dont know how i will live without you

i will love U always and forever

my one true love

i love you MOM…

i wish life could be locked in this moment forever…

there is no magic answer

or shortcut to bypass the pain

and no matter how dark it might seem

a choice has to be made

whether you will keep fighting forward

for your own survival

or whether you will throw in the towel

give into the pain

to numb the feeling forever

of having to endure 

that which has caused you enormous grief

yet it’s never as simple as people believe it to be

it is never as clear 

because the consequences of one action

creates a ripple effect

that no one could have foreseen

i have stood before this door

and i know i am not the only one

and the opportunity presents itself

time and time again

but somehow 

i find my way back 

to a place where i can breathe again

to find some semblance of not giving up

but fighting to stay alive

death might seem like the only way out

and if you choose to

then no one would ever know what made you decide

to take that leap

into the great beyond

but what ever the reason

the loss of someone you love

is never repaired or replaced 

and can not ever be healed

as it leaves its scars on our lives

no one can force you

or tell you what to do

and it might seem 

no one truly knows what is living

deep within your soul

but i do hope that 

what ever the reason might be

i hope you will find a reason

not to open that door

because we dont know if we will ever return

from the great beyond

only love can guide us

and bring us back safely

so before you make a choice

just remember there is someone 

who loves you for you no matter what

Me

i am you 

and you are me

we are all of significant importance

we all feel love

we all feel the pain

and it never changes

or sets us apart

because we all feel something

may you find a blessing

to give you new hope

in the darkest of hours…

Like OMG, ive been so busy with a killing spree, ive seriously have had no time. i wonder though how one can tell that youve been watching too many dexter reruns….just saying….

Everything is quiet since youre not around
And I live in the numbness now
In the background
I do the things we did before
I walk haight street to the store
And they say wheres that crazy girl
You dont get drunk on red wine and fight no more
I dont see you anymore since the hospital
The plans I make still have you in them
Cause you come swimming into view
And Im hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background
Im in the background
Words they come and memories all repeat
I lift your head while they change the hospital sheets
And I would never lie to you no
I would never lie to you no
I felt you long after we were through, we were through
The plans I make still have you in them
Cause you come swimming into view
And Im hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background
Cause I felt you long after we were through
Well you come swimming into view
And Im hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel to you
I only know because
Im way Im way in the background
Im in the background